Felling suicidal

I never thought that I will being so depressed as fuck. Thus year has been so depressing and tiring year of mine. Since I told myself in 2011, "you'll be better than this. Just tryst yourself." In 2011 it was my very first time being depressed for a long because my parent were divorced and my father was married another woman without telling me. Oh how I survived it till today. And I still didnt try hard to recovery. Because I dont know whether I really want to get better or not. Hm what a life. Living Always Mentally Elevated Depressed Depression Felling Suicidal MentallyIlled Home Alone Bipolar_disorder Hurting Cutting Arms Therapist
Felling Suicidal